|Posted by Cashel Gardner on October 10, 2012 at 12:35 PM|
I saw this post from my mom, Sandy Antolik Gardner and I wanted to share it;
it is so weird, sometimes my foot or body just HURTS and I feel like I HAVE to sit down for a little while or I will collapse but I have 2 children on ventilators that require so much care and there are things that HAVE to be done for them no matter what. I think "How can I do it? My body is breaking down and I can't move another inch!" Then next thing I know I am up and I am not only doing the necessary things but I am stocking supplies and doing thing that could wait till morning and in the middle of doing it I stop and I think "HOW? How do I feel so good and have the energy to keep moving?" that's when I stop and Thank God for repairing my body to keep up with my heart.
I have never wished I could stand or walk so I could play and run or just to be a regular kid, but I HAVE wished I could so I could help my mom.
Do you know what it is like to lay there and watch her do all she does? She doesn't stop working from the time she gets up in the morning till she finally goes to sleep at night (which is around 2 am) then she is up every 2-3 hours to give medicine or add food and water to our nighttime feedings. You can find her either right next to my bed or Allie's bed at all times caring for us. I can even see her STANDING in the kitchen eating her meals.
I thank God for my mom, my dad and Matt they work hours and hours doing EVERYTHING for Allie and me. Even my little sister Emily will come running when she hears me say that my eyebrows itch or Allie's movie is over and she can't change the channel.
You wanna know the most amazing thing about it though?
My family makes us feel like we are gifts to them and even with ALL the work we need they would do 1000 times more to keep us here and happy. Now THAT sure makes a person feel special and SO LOVED! Hope each of you feel that in your life too